Left Out

I've had a problem for as long as I can remember. I always have to feel in the loop, in the thick of things. I hate feeling left out. It was one thing to feel that way in high school or perhaps even college, but I find it ridiculous that I'm almost 30 (and a mother no less) and I still care about whether I've been left out or not. I try to tell myself "hey you have your own life, who cares what other people are doing" but it doesn't work, I still obsess. Besides, my life sucks right now, so it's not like that's a selling point anyway. I guess I just wonder how much longer I am going to have these thoughts.