Happy Birthday Logan!

Dear Logan,
Exactly 2 years ago when Dr. Fleming was yanking you out with forceps, I never knew how much you'd make me laugh. You are hilarious. Today your "gorgeous I say!" and "what to do now?" melted my heart each time, along with your big beautiful grin. I never knew that you would amaze me every.single.day. You are ALWAYS coming up with something new and watching you learn new things (and witnessing your love of learning) is so fulfilling.

I also never knew that you'd be so good at pushing my buttons. Child, you are just so naughty sometimes. Luckily you love to give your mommy hugs, kisses, and nuzzles to make up for it.

Before you, I never knew how a person could completely take over my head, my heart, and my soul. You are always in my thoughts. I have loved you so much, ever since I first found out you were coming, and I didn't think I could love you any more than that moment Daddy laid you beside me so I could admire how much you looked like me. :-) But my love for you has grown every day, and I'm thrilled that you've been in my life these past 2 years. I'm so lucky to be your mommy. Happy birthday Buddy Boy! I can't wait to see what the next year has in store for both of us.

Love,
Mommy

Left Out

I've had a problem for as long as I can remember. I always have to feel in the loop, in the thick of things. I hate feeling left out. It was one thing to feel that way in high school or perhaps even college, but I find it ridiculous that I'm almost 30 (and a mother no less) and I still care about whether I've been left out or not. I try to tell myself "hey you have your own life, who cares what other people are doing" but it doesn't work, I still obsess. Besides, my life sucks right now, so it's not like that's a selling point anyway. I guess I just wonder how much longer I am going to have these thoughts.